Why he stares at me like Im suppose to say something why he walks by like our hands suppose to be touching one of us should say something but I refuse to let it be me I feel youre the guy so you should come to me I do believe thats sad to believe but what do when the feeling wont leave,he can act & make it seem its nothing, when really its something, but the day he realizes his heart is broken I will already be gone cause then I will be starting my future & I dont plan on doing it alone, I know in the future something could possibly hit'em & I know its kinda sad I didnt wait it out & stay, but I guess its on him, his feelings came to late.
TiffJ
Monday, December 27, 2010
Daddys Little Girl
I miss him so much he was my world he showed he love me much I was his little girl
As time flu by he went but will never be far always & forever he will be in my heart
Some may ask where did he go
Me being sad say uh a place to Rest In Peace,,, I don't know
But sadness I try not to show for now he's in a better place
But family is there for me just in case
So now all I have is memories when I think of my dad
Cause now he's past tense someone I've had
But I don't think I'm emotionally lost I know how I should feel
Feel joyous & happy even though he's not here
& some may ask where did he go
But he's always in my heart so I know hes close
I miss him so much he was my world
He showed he Loved me much I WAS HIS LITTLE GIRL.
TiffJ
As time flu by he went but will never be far always & forever he will be in my heart
Some may ask where did he go
Me being sad say uh a place to Rest In Peace,,, I don't know
But sadness I try not to show for now he's in a better place
But family is there for me just in case
So now all I have is memories when I think of my dad
Cause now he's past tense someone I've had
But I don't think I'm emotionally lost I know how I should feel
Feel joyous & happy even though he's not here
& some may ask where did he go
But he's always in my heart so I know hes close
I miss him so much he was my world
He showed he Loved me much I WAS HIS LITTLE GIRL.
TiffJ
Bitter Home
I strongly dislike everyone here been this way for so many years, this is the only feeling I feel, mentally, physically, & emotionally alone & this is the place I supposely call home siblings understand but cant help me escape cause right now little ones are here & coming and thier running out of space but they can show empathy and sympathy for sad me but right now thats not what I need, I need rescuing from this place that makes my heart so cold cause right now it seems, its gone froze not ready to be grown but, ready to leave witness things I never imagined I would or dreamed negative energy all around me makes my spirit so low I pray day & night GOD help me escape this bitter home.
TiffJ
TiffJ
Friday, December 3, 2010
Not perfect
Pay attention to the thoughts I say
The feelings I hide the words I pray
for soon you will get
you might even start to believe that someone could be with me
& love me
just pay attention youll see
I just want you to understand that everything I do is not planned
& even if I give my all theres a time when I might stumble or even fall
because my personality has flaws
and all the times I left you hot and cold.. is so you know im
no peerfect individual.
TiffJ
The feelings I hide the words I pray
for soon you will get
you might even start to believe that someone could be with me
& love me
just pay attention youll see
I just want you to understand that everything I do is not planned
& even if I give my all theres a time when I might stumble or even fall
because my personality has flaws
and all the times I left you hot and cold.. is so you know im
no peerfect individual.
TiffJ
Thursday, November 25, 2010
...smh...
Ive found my love but my love hasn't found me
& when he passes by its hard to breath
He doesn't say anything he doesn't speak
he said something before but I don't want to be naive
somethings is hard to believe
like maybe he does like me but just shyer than me
I heard that from a friend the statement left my heart open
now others can walk in anytime without it even closing
but the day he let his feelings be known it would either open to him or just close
but if he never let me know ill just wonder if him and I could be
but we have the future to look foward to just wait and see
I dont know if hes a crush are something more
but everyday Im not with him my heart gets sore
but a question I will always ask myself with a sigh..
will him and I ever be?
with no reply
TiffJ
2 gether again
Its been a while since Ive seen your face
doesn't mean Ive forgotten what you've look like
but your smile is something I could never forget
its one of the best things about you and something I missed
since you've been away Ive been thinking of why we had to be apart
where do I start I have to listen to my heart
Ive always became weak from you touch we loved each other to much to keep it innocent & stuff
it was just to much
now seeing you again is much different then before
and don't say lets be friends cause I need you now and it has to be more
& I know love is the reason we're together again
& I first fell in love with you when we were just friends
and it wasn't long ago but it was awhile
cause it wasn't the first I saw you but the first time you smile
TiffJ
doesn't mean Ive forgotten what you've look like
but your smile is something I could never forget
its one of the best things about you and something I missed
since you've been away Ive been thinking of why we had to be apart
where do I start I have to listen to my heart
Ive always became weak from you touch we loved each other to much to keep it innocent & stuff
it was just to much
now seeing you again is much different then before
and don't say lets be friends cause I need you now and it has to be more
& I know love is the reason we're together again
& I first fell in love with you when we were just friends
and it wasn't long ago but it was awhile
cause it wasn't the first I saw you but the first time you smile
TiffJ
LOve
Being deeply Loved by someone gives you, strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Saturday, August 7, 2010
It takes......
It takes a minute to see someone, It takes hours to fall in love with somebody & a whole life to forget about them!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Ready to hurt
You are the most beautiful person I've ever met, in & out
but maybe that's under stating it
you are the most, gorgeous person I've seen and as well I think you have a great personality
and I understand no body's perfect but excepting you I believe might be worth it
& I know no relationship is faultless
there will be times when you feel anguish and there are times when you just cant take it
and of course there will be times when you feel better but those aren't the times when you have to endeavor, those are the times when you have to love through pain and grief
if each other you would like to keep
but you have to try not to give up
& I realize that loving someone can be tough
but I value that to get to happy it will be rough
that's the risk you have to take
if love you want to make
& feelings sometime you forsake just to have good times and bad times
even then you keep attempting
even though you're sobbing and sad
now both of you are mad
then at the end of it all you want each other bad
and when loving somebody thinking of the pain is never first
agony leads to happiness
so always be ready to hurt.
TiffJ
but maybe that's under stating it
you are the most, gorgeous person I've seen and as well I think you have a great personality
and I understand no body's perfect but excepting you I believe might be worth it
& I know no relationship is faultless
there will be times when you feel anguish and there are times when you just cant take it
and of course there will be times when you feel better but those aren't the times when you have to endeavor, those are the times when you have to love through pain and grief
if each other you would like to keep
but you have to try not to give up
& I realize that loving someone can be tough
but I value that to get to happy it will be rough
that's the risk you have to take
if love you want to make
& feelings sometime you forsake just to have good times and bad times
even then you keep attempting
even though you're sobbing and sad
now both of you are mad
then at the end of it all you want each other bad
and when loving somebody thinking of the pain is never first
agony leads to happiness
so always be ready to hurt.
TiffJ
"Melissa"
A girl with no intentions to break a heart
but has many male companions, but she's not settling
& while each of them thinks they could be the one her head's swelling
not because their not capable
really just cause she don't want to date them
and if this was a guy we call'em womanizer
but its a girl so it really doesn't surprise us
a girl with options but hasn't found the right man
a girl with a goal to find love, but doesn't have any plans
experienced a couple of wrong guys
but not enough to make her cry
but enough to make her sigh, & no comments of replying
but shes not a quitter
almost afraid to become bitter
when you see her you wont miss her
& shes kinda afraid to be in love
its a mystery why but say just cause..
its a mystery why but say just cause..
TiffJ
Monday, August 2, 2010
I Guess(Im scared)
I just had a thought about when you first fall in love
&; the time you break up, I wonder will it consume your heart
Cause the fact that I've lost someone I love before
makes the feeling hard to ignore
and the uncertainty that I believe everybody gets their heart broken at least once
in their life makes it hard sometimes to even think about other things its always on my mind
so hard to let somebody in its even hard for somebody to be my friend, all I can say is don't give up
keep trying cause its hard to see somebody who really loves you its like your blind
I guess getting your heart broken is hard to bare
I suppose I need somebody to show me they really care
I wonder how can you love somebody so much and the love just dies
when there was a time you felt you could never get enough
I guess what I'm saying is I'm afraid to fall in love..
TiffJ
&; the time you break up, I wonder will it consume your heart
Cause the fact that I've lost someone I love before
makes the feeling hard to ignore
and the uncertainty that I believe everybody gets their heart broken at least once
in their life makes it hard sometimes to even think about other things its always on my mind
so hard to let somebody in its even hard for somebody to be my friend, all I can say is don't give up
keep trying cause its hard to see somebody who really loves you its like your blind
I guess getting your heart broken is hard to bare
I suppose I need somebody to show me they really care
I wonder how can you love somebody so much and the love just dies
when there was a time you felt you could never get enough
I guess what I'm saying is I'm afraid to fall in love..
TiffJ
Indulger...
My life is full of things I can't have
& to know I cant have it makes me want it bad
and guys are something you have to pick cautiously
but what do you do when their irresistibly gorgeous and say & do all the right things
inside I knew he was imperfect for me
why does something so immoral feel so worthy
It left me feeling incompetent
you shouldn't mess with things you have know concern
I never really cared if I indulged
but I never wanted to give in to his love.
TiffJ
& to know I cant have it makes me want it bad
and guys are something you have to pick cautiously
but what do you do when their irresistibly gorgeous and say & do all the right things
inside I knew he was imperfect for me
why does something so immoral feel so worthy
It left me feeling incompetent
you shouldn't mess with things you have know concern
I never really cared if I indulged
but I never wanted to give in to his love.
TiffJ
Impoverish Communication
What you say I cant hear you
you talking nonsense my ears wont hear you cause there ignorance proof
get your priorities straight maybe Ill listen
don't interrupt me when I'm talking wait till I finish
don't beat around the bush tell me what you feel
I don't blow things out of proportion cause I know how to deal
just say whats real I'm waiting to hear it,
for you to be with me I need you to speak to me
not any kind of way but come correct
you'll always beside me but I don't know whats in your head
I never say never cause I never knew if you'll stick around
if only I could tell you how I feel
so we both sit around in frustration
we knew this relationship wouldn't last because of our Impoverish communication.
TiffJ
you talking nonsense my ears wont hear you cause there ignorance proof
get your priorities straight maybe Ill listen
don't interrupt me when I'm talking wait till I finish
don't beat around the bush tell me what you feel
I don't blow things out of proportion cause I know how to deal
just say whats real I'm waiting to hear it,
for you to be with me I need you to speak to me
not any kind of way but come correct
you'll always beside me but I don't know whats in your head
I never say never cause I never knew if you'll stick around
if only I could tell you how I feel
so we both sit around in frustration
we knew this relationship wouldn't last because of our Impoverish communication.
TiffJ
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Somebody for me
I think my love is waiting for me
I don't know why I think he's waiting for me
Its sorta like the wind
I just feel it but I don't see it,
but I try to pretend
find my disguise with the scenery
I don't care if love finds me as long as when he does he believes in me
believes in me to love him unconditionally
love him more than anything I've ever love
& when I'm away he's the one I think of
I want to be in his heart but all I need is the key
I'll be there soon
I know theirs somebody for me.
TiffJ
I don't know why I think he's waiting for me
Its sorta like the wind
I just feel it but I don't see it,
but I try to pretend
find my disguise with the scenery
I don't care if love finds me as long as when he does he believes in me
believes in me to love him unconditionally
love him more than anything I've ever love
& when I'm away he's the one I think of
I want to be in his heart but all I need is the key
I'll be there soon
I know theirs somebody for me.
TiffJ
Not a game
He wants to play but this is not a game, & yes he knows its not a game
If there's not a system in the front of you its not the same. it will never be the same
cause my heart is nothing to play with, he act simple minded but when it comes to love its complicated not basic
& because I know this I don't think he will be able to stay in,
stay in my heart
only cause he play games and he could break it apart
& until he reach the level of contentment with his life, he could possibly start acting precise
but until then, I will turn in the games of loyalty,commitment, and trust cause games don't live here anymore when it comes to Love.
TiffJ
If there's not a system in the front of you its not the same. it will never be the same
cause my heart is nothing to play with, he act simple minded but when it comes to love its complicated not basic
& because I know this I don't think he will be able to stay in,
stay in my heart
only cause he play games and he could break it apart
& until he reach the level of contentment with his life, he could possibly start acting precise
but until then, I will turn in the games of loyalty,commitment, and trust cause games don't live here anymore when it comes to Love.
TiffJ
Just because..
Keep it sweet & simple cause I don't have time
annihilate all the people cause none of the are kind
& when I say none I really mean it
cause none of them are kind that I know so that's good enough to believe it
I need you to understand what I mean cause you might be nice but just hard to read
& if you're that kind of person its not hard to believe
so what I'm saying is prove me wrong, cause nobody wants to be alone, not in their beliefs that is, cause if you believe what I believe than maybe you're near
probably not, some things are hard for me to except, sometimes instead of writing with my right hand I try and do left, I learned to except things for what it was, I can say why but I wont
just because..
TiffJ
annihilate all the people cause none of the are kind
& when I say none I really mean it
cause none of them are kind that I know so that's good enough to believe it
I need you to understand what I mean cause you might be nice but just hard to read
& if you're that kind of person its not hard to believe
so what I'm saying is prove me wrong, cause nobody wants to be alone, not in their beliefs that is, cause if you believe what I believe than maybe you're near
probably not, some things are hard for me to except, sometimes instead of writing with my right hand I try and do left, I learned to except things for what it was, I can say why but I wont
just because..
TiffJ
When it hurts..
When it hurts I silently cry on the inside,
It hurts cause we figured out what it takes to make us work,
It doesn't play out like a fairytale, but you might have a fairytale ending
& while we're getting there were're hurting on the way
But I guess thats part of being in love, making it work when your heart feels consumed
but makes you want more of thier love, & when it it hurts you're not indenial
You're just thinking of the times that make you smile,
Remembering the day you vowed to put them first,
we have faith in eachother , so thats what we do when it hurts....
TiffJ
It hurts cause we figured out what it takes to make us work,
It doesn't play out like a fairytale, but you might have a fairytale ending
& while we're getting there were're hurting on the way
But I guess thats part of being in love, making it work when your heart feels consumed
but makes you want more of thier love, & when it it hurts you're not indenial
You're just thinking of the times that make you smile,
Remembering the day you vowed to put them first,
we have faith in eachother , so thats what we do when it hurts....
TiffJ
Sunday, July 25, 2010
16
I got a problem & I got to face it
cause people treat me like im nobody when I am somebody
I may not always act like im suppose to
but thats me & im me what do you suggest I do
my life doesnt feel complete
companionship is what I need
I wonder will this feeling change when I turn sixteen
I know im still young but what can I do when I feel alone, I been hurt before but not intentionally whatever that means
I wonder if my life would change when I turn 16 haven't had a boyfriend yet, its cause im not trying, right now im not ready to claim any being as mine
I guess I will one day go to wait & see
I wonder will this feeling change when I turn sixtee
I only have a couple hours, will my life change I wonder breathe, if anything will change IF I turn 16.
TiffJ
cause people treat me like im nobody when I am somebody
I may not always act like im suppose to
but thats me & im me what do you suggest I do
my life doesnt feel complete
companionship is what I need
I wonder will this feeling change when I turn sixteen
I know im still young but what can I do when I feel alone, I been hurt before but not intentionally whatever that means
I wonder if my life would change when I turn 16 haven't had a boyfriend yet, its cause im not trying, right now im not ready to claim any being as mine
I guess I will one day go to wait & see
I wonder will this feeling change when I turn sixtee
I only have a couple hours, will my life change I wonder breathe, if anything will change IF I turn 16.
TiffJ
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Monday, July 12, 2010
For now
You are the reason I laugh you are the reason I smile
my joy comes from your happiness from the past & the now
you are on my mind everyday and night
for now I call you my husband & for now im your wife
I keep time on my side cause I know it dont last forever
we have fun always for now no matter the weather
but one day our love wont be featured in art
& the day that happend we would already have been fallen apart
live the way we want just dont know how
dreamin of what we want more than this world would allow
but the good times keeps you close by me for then & for now.
TiffJ
my joy comes from your happiness from the past & the now
you are on my mind everyday and night
for now I call you my husband & for now im your wife
I keep time on my side cause I know it dont last forever
we have fun always for now no matter the weather
but one day our love wont be featured in art
& the day that happend we would already have been fallen apart
live the way we want just dont know how
dreamin of what we want more than this world would allow
but the good times keeps you close by me for then & for now.
TiffJ
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Some people
You love some people not because you chose to love them but because they chose to love you.
Direction
Love does not consist of gazing at eachother, but in looking together in the same direction.
Misunderstood
As time goes by, I
lessen the cry,
but then when you walk by, its not so easy to watch,
& then that's when I realize what we once had,
we use to do when we both laugh,
times get hard every time I see you ,
the way you act like you don't care I just cant believe you
but I don't understand,
no girl gets the man,
you just have no clue, you don't get me & I don't get you.
TiffJ
lessen the cry,
but then when you walk by, its not so easy to watch,
& then that's when I realize what we once had,
we use to do when we both laugh,
times get hard every time I see you ,
the way you act like you don't care I just cant believe you
but I don't understand,
no girl gets the man,
you just have no clue, you don't get me & I don't get you.
TiffJ
"Vanessa"
She keep a thought in the back of her head if shell ever fall in love
its something she takes in everyday its sorta like a drug
love is always on her mind it inspires her to live in hope she will find,,,,,
whatever hidden in her future behind Vanessa's door
shell face it with whoever together theyll soar,
shell wake up & see whoevers face, then shell exhale because somebody took nobodys space,
& forever theyll be together not just because,
but because they want to & because they're nlove.
its something she takes in everyday its sorta like a drug
love is always on her mind it inspires her to live in hope she will find,,,,,
whatever hidden in her future behind Vanessa's door
shell face it with whoever together theyll soar,
shell wake up & see whoevers face, then shell exhale because somebody took nobodys space,
& forever theyll be together not just because,
but because they want to & because they're nlove.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Where is my love?........
I woke up this morning and your face didn't come to mind
& even when I searched for it it was hard to find,
I saw you walking towards me and I realized I was looking past you
you smiled then i smiled cause I felt I had to
why cant I show you my love that I know I have inside me,,,,,
then i realized its cause you're never beside me,
you never showed me your love,
and i cant love you cause what you give me is not enough,
& ill continue to walk by and think of you
and maybe one day you'll think and be with me......
TiffJ
& even when I searched for it it was hard to find,
I saw you walking towards me and I realized I was looking past you
you smiled then i smiled cause I felt I had to
why cant I show you my love that I know I have inside me,,,,,
then i realized its cause you're never beside me,
you never showed me your love,
and i cant love you cause what you give me is not enough,
& ill continue to walk by and think of you
and maybe one day you'll think and be with me......
TiffJ
Love
You are patient and kind
& I want your love to be mine
So I'll sit and wait for you but still lookin while i wait
because you just might not be faith
I wish I was in your arms
so you can whisper things in my ear about Love
because you're the only thing that could make me smile
and waiting for you I hope is worth my while
been thinking of you since I was young,
your face, your voice your touch I
only know one thing about you,,,
that your name is Love.
TiffJ
& I want your love to be mine
So I'll sit and wait for you but still lookin while i wait
because you just might not be faith
I wish I was in your arms
so you can whisper things in my ear about Love
because you're the only thing that could make me smile
and waiting for you I hope is worth my while
been thinking of you since I was young,
your face, your voice your touch I
only know one thing about you,,,
that your name is Love.
TiffJ
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