"Facing Reality"

Facing reality

done w/ dreaming of what could've been or will never be

time to focus lookin straight ahead but barely

people tryna get my attention with ignorance

but i got distracted looked on the side of me

now I'm apart of something I wasnt even tryna be

so now I have to face it no walkin away

cause if I do I will be leavin people who have never left me

so done with this fantasy

with perfect friends & family

cause that will never be

done dreaming for now facing reality....

The thought

Tryna get myself to believe everything thats right

But its hard to see with blurry sight.

I contemplate over & over, what i wanna be 

while I still have someone to wake me in the morning & help me believe

It seems times get hard when it starts seeming easy

& though it might be easy, sometimes its hard breathing,

I know my times coming when I have to start caring for myself 

& hopefully i don't get caught up and have to care for someone else

I called this the thought cause I'm thinking about it all the time

Thinking without even knowing I'm thinking cause so much goes on inside

Inside of me, I find friends hard to keep 

Especially when it starts seeming personal

Cause now you're doing all you can no to hurt them

I find love on my mind

& my thoughts about it is it can be horrible but kind

I tell myself I'm getting me ready now

so in the future Ill know how....How to Love myself & someone else at the same time

Its like I'm obliged to do so...

I make my own rules which I choose to follow.. 

to make me genuine & true

So do you know whats on my mind 

if not that's fine 

Its not your place to know...

Cause minds are sacred places for only you to go...


TiffJ