As the liquid coats my body going all down my spine
& the
heat hypnotizes my mind
I'm feeling composed all exposed
I'm really liking this
How I feel liberated, unveiled in a confined space
I think
I'm there
Contemplating how these moments makes such a difference
Cause
my minds really occupied
Like I'm obliged to explain why I'm feeling so well
Or maybe
I should say compelled
There's something about this moment
I'm sensible to everything while I'm draped
with nothing
And yes I am getting immaculate in the process I just felt
the need to express
It's crazy how something so simple can be depicted so
profound
I'm just lost in the water the only time I don't mind not
being found.
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
"When I hear somebody sigh, ‘Life is hard,’ I am always tempted to ask, ‘Compared to what?" Sydney J. Harris
Nobody said life would be easy in the first place, it's our minds that create an illusion of how we think it should be.. So when we are not feeling our present living we just disappoint ourselves.. cause we believe it should be something different.
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Discombobulated
Lost for words, happy moods absent
I so don't know what's happening
Can you imagine feeling this way, if you could only see the expression on my face
The thing is I've always had this agenda for all the things I wanted to do
But lately there's been so many setbacks so hard to follow through
Just know that I refuse, to loose winning is in my destiny
Cause God keeps blessing me
& though one minute I'm glad, mad, perplexed one big mess that's just it, cause...
Times like this in your life you focus on works & faith that you'll be led somewhere great
I'm just not sure how to follow my dreams
If you know what I mean, like what path I must go what things might I need
But still I proceed, day to day with an nonchalant expression
Tryna send a message
That nothing can phase she, & though everything does
You wouldn't know that cause you don't know me
& though it's hard in the morning for me to stay awake & at night hard to sleep
I know my moment's coming I'm just waiting
Until then I'm confused & upset that's the vibes of discombobulated.
TiffJ
I so don't know what's happening
Can you imagine feeling this way, if you could only see the expression on my face
The thing is I've always had this agenda for all the things I wanted to do
But lately there's been so many setbacks so hard to follow through
Just know that I refuse, to loose winning is in my destiny
Cause God keeps blessing me
& though one minute I'm glad, mad, perplexed one big mess that's just it, cause...
Times like this in your life you focus on works & faith that you'll be led somewhere great
I'm just not sure how to follow my dreams
If you know what I mean, like what path I must go what things might I need
But still I proceed, day to day with an nonchalant expression
Tryna send a message
That nothing can phase she, & though everything does
You wouldn't know that cause you don't know me
& though it's hard in the morning for me to stay awake & at night hard to sleep
I know my moment's coming I'm just waiting
Until then I'm confused & upset that's the vibes of discombobulated.
TiffJ
Inexperienced
Writing something is permanent, unless you demolish what you
wrote it upon
So I always stopped myself from saying some on a topic which I didn't have any experience on
You have to have a type of maturity & labor for something to enact real
Find a sympathetic place for it to come from so people would understand how you feel
Along with obtaining an intimate perception on something to discern the lesson
How can you empathize when you don't know where to go to find that feeling inside
How could you inform or relate when you've never experienced that sensation to feel what to say
I've never been a fan of taking people's advice when they've never applied it in there on life
And I've never cared to communicate
With those who relay words for the sake of communicating nothing deep to say
How could you lend your advice
If you don't know if you would take it, or at least might
To speak on other peoples issues I've always been on the fence
When some people would be like what do you know but my feelings are intense & even still I say nothing cause I am aware that I'm Inexperienced..
TiffJ
So I always stopped myself from saying some on a topic which I didn't have any experience on
You have to have a type of maturity & labor for something to enact real
Find a sympathetic place for it to come from so people would understand how you feel
Along with obtaining an intimate perception on something to discern the lesson
How can you empathize when you don't know where to go to find that feeling inside
How could you inform or relate when you've never experienced that sensation to feel what to say
I've never been a fan of taking people's advice when they've never applied it in there on life
And I've never cared to communicate
With those who relay words for the sake of communicating nothing deep to say
How could you lend your advice
If you don't know if you would take it, or at least might
To speak on other peoples issues I've always been on the fence
When some people would be like what do you know but my feelings are intense & even still I say nothing cause I am aware that I'm Inexperienced..
TiffJ
Scared to feel
I stopped responding when my heart started
speaking
I stopped trying to find the true definition of love when I actually felt I had my own meaning Didn't try to explain it, cause its those eccentric feelings that you're scared to put into words
Cause it might be, lo..
Then I found myself not texting
Cause I started looking forward to your message
Cause when you start expecting, there's a huge risk
And it's then you allow yourself to be disappointed
Peculiar I think they call it
Noticing your unusual behavior doing things you don't do often
I thought I ran out of words for you until I realized there were other words I'd rather say
So speechless is what I became
Why I shut down when I feel the unnorm way
Maybe cause I'm not use to being in that place or
Maybe because I've never sincerely been
Feeling vulnerable I've never been fond of that feeling
Scared to feel, because hearts take the longest to heal
& I'm not positive I ready for that whole ordeal
But you can't help when you meet people & fall for them that's apart of living it's just scary
Because hearts have no boundaries are limitations when it starts feeling & that scares me..
TiffJ
I stopped trying to find the true definition of love when I actually felt I had my own meaning Didn't try to explain it, cause its those eccentric feelings that you're scared to put into words
Cause it might be, lo..
Then I found myself not texting
Cause I started looking forward to your message
Cause when you start expecting, there's a huge risk
And it's then you allow yourself to be disappointed
Peculiar I think they call it
Noticing your unusual behavior doing things you don't do often
I thought I ran out of words for you until I realized there were other words I'd rather say
So speechless is what I became
Why I shut down when I feel the unnorm way
Maybe cause I'm not use to being in that place or
Maybe because I've never sincerely been
Feeling vulnerable I've never been fond of that feeling
Scared to feel, because hearts take the longest to heal
& I'm not positive I ready for that whole ordeal
But you can't help when you meet people & fall for them that's apart of living it's just scary
Because hearts have no boundaries are limitations when it starts feeling & that scares me..
TiffJ
Friday, December 28, 2012
Very Fortunate
Some say lucky some say blessed
But I know my desirability, no I'm not like the rest
Fortunate yes
Call me unique, call my personality real call my body
lovely
It's sorta like simulation, because its an act of
anticipation because
I'll have you waiting; for
me
Compare my smile to the sun providing you with warmth while
brilliantly shining
Filling you with energy
Fortunate yes
I have this thing I do sometimes, that makes your my mind
unseeing,
That all you see is me it's like a depiction of feelings,
No its not absurd, I'm just
Fortunate
That I'm that promising making you see no one else
Yes I'm a catch, & someday someone will
be propitious enough to receive me
Believe me I'm worth it,
Something close to impeccable but
not quite
Just that gorgeous, what a pleasure to be in sight
Let me consume your
soul, body & mind to a feeling that can never be
defined
My authenticity I hope you see, how beloved I can be
All you have
to do is give me your heart,
& no I don't need any
keys, or clues to open it
Trust me I already know this
Lucky no, I'm just very Fortunate ..
TiffJ
My theories
How can I Love when I'm afraid to fall
Why would I want to give to someone if it's not my all
I'm not really sure how Love works
So I have my theories on how it should
How we would be, want to be, & how we could, yeah my theories
I noticed that I push people away
& before I realize I want them there, its too late
But I have my theories that someday someone even when I push them
Will pull me with'em
And I know patience is a virtue
Good things take time, so I guess I'll wait for you
And if you're not sure if it's meant to be
You let 'em go & wait and see
Sometimes it might not be, but my theory is you have faith
That even if you've been disappointed, someone better will take their place
Love is wanting someone to be happy even if its not with you
Because it's not selfish, its about what you're feeling not felt
It's wanting the best for them & not yourself
And No, I'm not sure about any of these things
I'm like 99% positive, that I believe I really know what Love should be
And no you don't have to agree with me
Because, they're My theories...
TiffJ
Why would I want to give to someone if it's not my all
I'm not really sure how Love works
So I have my theories on how it should
How we would be, want to be, & how we could, yeah my theories
I noticed that I push people away
& before I realize I want them there, its too late
But I have my theories that someday someone even when I push them
Will pull me with'em
And I know patience is a virtue
Good things take time, so I guess I'll wait for you
And if you're not sure if it's meant to be
You let 'em go & wait and see
Sometimes it might not be, but my theory is you have faith
That even if you've been disappointed, someone better will take their place
Love is wanting someone to be happy even if its not with you
Because it's not selfish, its about what you're feeling not felt
It's wanting the best for them & not yourself
And No, I'm not sure about any of these things
I'm like 99% positive, that I believe I really know what Love should be
And no you don't have to agree with me
Because, they're My theories...
TiffJ
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