Puzzle piece

Stuck in my feelings, feels like I'm drowning
Sorta like a mixture of sorrow & joy
Guess I'm fighting how I want to feel, & how I should
Talking to everyone I can so I can keep my mind occupied
But it seems everyone sucks cause they're not you
I don't know how else to put it
Lost cause I'm trying to find something but not even looking 
It's like my heart has been tooken & I don't even know who took it
I guess that means it feels like something's missing
So I'm on this journey trying to find someone that genuinely fits me
awaiting my puzzle piece.

Ugh

Ever felt powerless, no time to do anything like it's a minute left
Your mind is spinning they have you in circles saying "can't believe I love you" 
Ugh that's how you feel, cause it don't seem real 
You don't know what this sensation is but don't want it 
Just wanna give it away and get something in returned like you can pawn it 
That way you don't feel like you've wasted your time 
But you think you did but only will know in time 
You'll be fine this you know you never stay down for long  
How dare you gamble your heart and get nothing in returned 
I guess this is one of those live and you learn type of situations 
It's just amazing the moment you step outside of yourself
Is when you feel like you have nothing left
Because you let someone in, so now it's like never again 
Now you feel stupid a lil bit useless like why did I do this
Just looking forward to a past time when it all becomes amusing.

Endless

The nerve of some people that think they can just keep you 
Just a want, don't need you just nothing better to do
I found life is more interesting when you have someone to like  
Then I contradict myself & say I wish I liked no one 
Cause when the feeling isn't mutual it's just not as fun
I don't know if you can relate 
Understand I'm just tryna get something off my chest
I'm a mess I guess cause I need a guy to be around a little while before I open up
So I guess some feel that's just too much but 
That's me I'm not changing why & for what 
But I took a chance & no I don't regret it it's just now I'm feeling indifferent  
My heart is disturb & everything just feels wrong 
It's like my mind's gone with a song in my heart "It was that sweetest thing I've known"
But I don't want this feeling to prolong & uhh 
I don't even know how to end this poem.

Shower Flow

As the liquid coats my body going all down my spine
& the heat hypnotizes my mind
I'm feeling composed all exposed
I'm really liking this
How I feel liberated, unveiled in a confined space
I think I'm there
Contemplating how these moments makes such a difference
Cause my minds really occupied
Like I'm obliged to explain why I'm feeling so well
Or maybe I should say compelled
There's something about this moment
I'm sensible to everything while I'm draped with nothing
And yes I am getting immaculate in the process I just felt the need to express
It's crazy how something so simple can be depicted so profound
I'm just lost in the water the only time I don't mind not being found.

"When I hear somebody sigh, ‘Life is hard,’ I am always tempted to ask, ‘Compared to what?" Sydney J. Harris

Nobody said life would be easy in the first place, it's our minds that create an illusion of how we think it should be.. So when we are not feeling our present living we just disappoint ourselves.. cause we believe it should be something different.

Discombobulated

Lost for words, happy moods absent
I so don't know what's happening
Can you imagine feeling this way, if you could only see the expression on my face
The thing is I've always had this agenda for all the things I wanted to do
But lately there's been so many setbacks so hard to follow through
Just know that I refuse, to loose winning is in my destiny
Cause God keeps blessing me
& though one minute I'm glad, mad, perplexed one big mess that's just it, cause...
Times like this in your life you focus on works & faith that you'll be led somewhere great
I'm just not sure how to follow my dreams
If you know what I mean, like what path I must go what things might I need
But still I proceed, day to day with an nonchalant expression
Tryna send a message
That nothing can phase she, & though everything does
You wouldn't know that cause you don't know me
& though it's hard in the morning for me to stay awake & at night hard to sleep
I know my moment's coming I'm just waiting
Until then I'm confused & upset that's the vibes of discombobulated.


TiffJ

Inexperienced

Writing something is permanent, unless you demolish what you wrote it upon
So I always stopped myself from saying some on a topic which I didn't have any experience on
You have to have a type of maturity & labor for something to enact real
Find a sympathetic place for it to come from so people would understand how you feel
Along with obtaining an intimate perception on something to discern the lesson
How can you empathize when you don't know where to go to find that feeling inside
How could you inform or relate when you've never experienced that sensation to feel what to say
I've never been a fan of taking people's advice when they've never applied it in there on life
And I've never cared to communicate
With those who relay words for the sake of communicating nothing deep to say
How could you lend your advice
If you don't know if you would take it, or at least might
To speak on other peoples issues I've always been on the fence
When some people would be like what do you know but my feelings are intense &  even still I say nothing cause I am aware that I'm Inexperienced..

TiffJ