I want the music playing..

I want the music playing..

Cause you are so distracting.. 

music is the only thing that stops me from over thinking

 & over analyzing 

& lately I can't seem to control my mind and. 

  Its like my mind  has a mind of its on  so I don't know,

but the music changes that 

when I'm sad to glad

when I'm angry to Happy 

but only when I pick the right song 

  otherwise it'll be a bad mood gone wrong 

I wouldn't say Its my life

But I know I can't walk around with earphones in everywhere 

Eventually & hopefully one day I can control what's in there   

 My thoughts I'm trying to control that          

My mind my private movie & I control the soundtrack.. 

TiffJ

When you say never..

I never do anything I don't feel like
  Unless its best for me then I might
I never play w/ what other people feel
Cause its never good when its real 
  I never say Love unless I mean it 100%
Otherwise I don't say it 
  But I try to make sure I do things even if I don't like it
I guess I'm trying to make me more enticing 
  I never liked saying the word never cause I felt like it'll happen when you say it
I don't know about you but Ima say what I wanna say
Cause if its meant to be it'll happen anyways 
When you say never you limit everything you can do 
& even if you don't want to what's the point of saying what you're not going to 
There really isn't one if you know what you're willing to do ....be you
Then you'll never have to worry what you said you never would never do..


TiffJ

Pride/self-esteem

If my pride could talk it would say stop being full of yourself  
  If my self esteem could talk it would say you really need help                                                  
  Dont get me confused Im not naive
Nobody can tell me Im beautiful & I feel have to give them something
I know where Im going I know who I am Just not sure how to get there
 If I ever talk to whats-his face again I would say its not fair
You made me like you now I have to pretend not to care
 So even if it was real Ill just move on like it wasnt
One thing Ive noticed is my pride has stopped me from doing a lot of things my heart wanted to do Then my self esteem takes over my mind like, was I ....really ?
So Im not sure how I come up w/ anything ..one thing I know is it takes time cause I never know whether to go with my heart or my mind ...

TiffJ

Memory...

In memory
of all those who made me who I am,
Friend or Foe;
Im better now than I ever was
Get better with each passing day
To all those who just came around to make a memory..foe;
& for those want to be my memory and I theirs friend
I know who you are & you are saved to memory..


TiiffJ

Miss you more..

Do you know what its like to meet someone who knows you better than you know yourself
To feel lost, but have someone who finds you
Then makes sure you never go astray again
A friend, a light that brightens your day What a honor to know someone whose smile makes you smile even when you dont wanna
But I'll admit I was against you
But you were for me so how could I be
Turns out its hard not letting someone in your life when you wanna be in theirs
I wont ever forget you because you gave me so much to remember
&; if and when time goes by you say you miss me but I think you say it only when you're bored & even if not
Know that I miss you more...


TiffJ

Let me see...

Lets see I could write about why I have no idea what to write about or how Ive been so distracted I never bothered to pick up a writing utensil
Lets see last year in high school my mind left caught up in a social life I felt I needed to have so ill never feel alone
&; that became a necessity so when I didnt have it I was gne mind, body, and soul
Lets see I caught the itis so bad I didnt even fight it started procrastinating almost didn't graduate
Now I come to ends with a life that was the base of my heart now I find myself exploring it deeper
 Lets see open up to people in ways I never thought I would
 feels good being comfortable in my own skin
trying not to blend or pretend this is me real, genuine, athentic &; Im letting you see.


Tiff J

"Facing Reality"

Facing reality

done w/ dreaming of what could've been or will never be

time to focus lookin straight ahead but barely

people tryna get my attention with ignorance

but i got distracted looked on the side of me

now I'm apart of something I wasnt even tryna be

so now I have to face it no walkin away

cause if I do I will be leavin people who have never left me

so done with this fantasy

with perfect friends & family

cause that will never be

done dreaming for now facing reality....