Scandal

I would like to have you but I know that's not the case 

I know you would like to have me, I'm just not sure in what way 

All I know is I want you in every way possible in hopes you want me also in every possible way

But this reality is killing me

Trying to shake this feeling of wanting you here with me

What are we doing anyways, I wish you'd answer for me that question

So I can stop making my own assumptions

About how you feel, how do you want to feel, do I make you feel, any kind of way

The fact that I have to wonder what a shame

Just trying not to broadcast my pain cause it would be a scandal for you & what's -her name

And the fact that I even care about defaming you, I would think that would be enough

For you to at least recognize my kind of love.

Intimacy

When someone can touch you emotionally, mentally & spiritually that's when it really gets intimate

And I just can't help but feel my need for affection is limitless

So I'm not sure how far we will get, cause a touch is never just a touch when it's someone you love

And when you need to be held a hug never seems to last long 

I'm talking prolonged, intimacy & I'm waiting for the one who can give that to me

I feel emotional connections are what's more important if I must say 

Cause if you don't have that, what's the point of being connected in any other way 

Feel me without feeling me, understand where I'm coming from without judging my past that's really all I ask 

Seduce my mind, disclose my thoughts & let our hearts embrace each others while our soul's intertwine 

Realizing that sex is not all its about, but knowing being together love is never questioned & have to be confessed from our mouths

That way when copulating the feeling's irrefutable because you always show me; sensuality

& yes I'm saying this is an necessity, cause what is love without intimacy.

"Angelic Face"

It's been awhile since I saw you, but remembering when I first did I was blown away
That moment when you wanna stare but can't stare but you can't look away 
I think your name started with a D, but In reality I don't say 
& even if I've forgotten can't forget your face
It's as if century's ago someone saw you & without the word angelic existing thought of it
A part of me is weird because I haven't seen you in who knows how long 
But you appeared vividly in my mind like a repeated song
How could I forget you, though it's true something can't be unseen, it usually just fades away but I guess that doesn't pertain to an "angelic face"
Your parents did you justice I bet you feel really lucky
How you carry yourself, you should be proud just gorgeously endowed
Why I reminiscence now I won't say it's cause I saw you in a dream & though it was in that moment I knew... because, it was you.

Puzzle piece

Stuck in my feelings, feels like I'm drowning
Sorta like a mixture of sorrow & joy
Guess I'm fighting how I want to feel, & how I should
Talking to everyone I can so I can keep my mind occupied
But it seems everyone sucks cause they're not you
I don't know how else to put it
Lost cause I'm trying to find something but not even looking 
It's like my heart has been tooken & I don't even know who took it
I guess that means it feels like something's missing
So I'm on this journey trying to find someone that genuinely fits me
awaiting my puzzle piece.

Ugh

Ever felt powerless, no time to do anything like it's a minute left
Your mind is spinning they have you in circles saying "can't believe I love you" 
Ugh that's how you feel, cause it don't seem real 
You don't know what this sensation is but don't want it 
Just wanna give it away and get something in returned like you can pawn it 
That way you don't feel like you've wasted your time 
But you think you did but only will know in time 
You'll be fine this you know you never stay down for long  
How dare you gamble your heart and get nothing in returned 
I guess this is one of those live and you learn type of situations 
It's just amazing the moment you step outside of yourself
Is when you feel like you have nothing left
Because you let someone in, so now it's like never again 
Now you feel stupid a lil bit useless like why did I do this
Just looking forward to a past time when it all becomes amusing.

Endless

The nerve of some people that think they can just keep you 
Just a want, don't need you just nothing better to do
I found life is more interesting when you have someone to like  
Then I contradict myself & say I wish I liked no one 
Cause when the feeling isn't mutual it's just not as fun
I don't know if you can relate 
Understand I'm just tryna get something off my chest
I'm a mess I guess cause I need a guy to be around a little while before I open up
So I guess some feel that's just too much but 
That's me I'm not changing why & for what 
But I took a chance & no I don't regret it it's just now I'm feeling indifferent  
My heart is disturb & everything just feels wrong 
It's like my mind's gone with a song in my heart "It was that sweetest thing I've known"
But I don't want this feeling to prolong & uhh 
I don't even know how to end this poem.

Shower Flow

As the liquid coats my body going all down my spine
& the heat hypnotizes my mind
I'm feeling composed all exposed
I'm really liking this
How I feel liberated, unveiled in a confined space
I think I'm there
Contemplating how these moments makes such a difference
Cause my minds really occupied
Like I'm obliged to explain why I'm feeling so well
Or maybe I should say compelled
There's something about this moment
I'm sensible to everything while I'm draped with nothing
And yes I am getting immaculate in the process I just felt the need to express
It's crazy how something so simple can be depicted so profound
I'm just lost in the water the only time I don't mind not being found.